Understanding what it means to be a mother is impossible until you actually are one.
I was lucky in my life to have a sister who is 14 years younger than me. She is a wonderful woman and was a great baby sister. She was 4 when I left home but those first 4 years of her life taught me a bit of what it would mean to be a mother. I was old enough to understand, and the knowledge taught me to wait.
With the understanding that I had gained I chose to wait until I felt I could handle motherhood. I knew just how much i didn’t know.
Now looking back I am glad that I waited. Now I have the knowledge that I gained in those 4 years of helping to raise my “baby” sister as well as the 10+ years of things that I did in my 20’s that I couldn’t have done if I had children.
Now they are my life. Everything I do is for them. They have opened my eyes to see the wonder of the world through fresh eyes. I can give and provide for them in a way I feel proud of.