This has been the longest and coldest winter in a long time. There were weeks where it felt like it would never end, today it finally feels like the end is in in sight. I have no illusions about Minnesota weather and fully expect yet another snowstorm to hit sometime in the fairly near future.
But today was beautiful. It was nice and warm, if overcast. I spent plenty of time out in the yard with the kids and the dog today. I was having so much fun I even forgot my camera until it was over.
While the boys were playing I decided to clear the leftovers from last summer out of the garden. To my surprise I found things growing in there. My dianthus is already green, my chives are coming up, at least some of my succulents survived the winter, and there were already some good sized weeds coming up. I realized that if weeds were already coming up I could probably plant some cold hardy seeds. I got some lettuce, radish, and spinach seeds put in. Plus I transplanted one lonely onion that somehow survived the winter. I hope it survives.
For this year I decided to try a bit more formal square foot gardening method. I built a quick grid out of some lathe that we had in the garage for a different project. I used the cut ends of the lathe to make the name tags for each square. I plan to plant small flowers around the edge of the grid.
Change terrifies me. Hands down terrifies me. Always has.
A few months ago I took a phone call from a recruiter on a new job opportunity. I agreed to talk to them purely because the guy on the other end of the phone is one I spoken to in the past and I respect him. Over the course of the last few weeks I slowly came to the conclusion that changing jobs may actually be a good idea.
The problem is that I love the job I currently have and the team that I am with. The new place offered me options that were better for my family than where I am currently at. Eventually I put in my notice and discovered that I am a valuable asset to the company. This should not have come as a surprise to me, but it did. They gave me a counter offer that leveled the playing field as far as benefits and the family situation.
Now what do I do. I discovered that when the field was leveled and the decision was purely about me and what I want for myself I froze up. How do I make a decision like this. Leaving a place I love, for the unknown of a new company.
Finally I read the following quote from a woman who I respect and has been in the background of my life for many years whispering in my ear, as any good muse should!
While I realize change can be scary, there comes a time when our “good enough” isn’t “good enough” anymore and we have to leap past our fears with courage and boldness to live the life we want and deserve.
I never quite know what I want out of life. Even after two months of contemplating leaving, it wasn’t until today that I realized I am making the right decision. What become clear to me is that if I don’t take the leap to something new I will not grow in the direction I want to. While the team I am on now is awesome, I feel like the opportunities offered at the new company will help me to grow in my career in a way that my current job will never be able to do.
Saying goodbye to the great team I am with now will be difficult. But looking forward to whats coming up has me excited to see whats around the corner.